Thursday, May 19, 2011

love, romance and other bullshit

A cigarette rest between his lips. That's all it took for her to notice him. The lit cigarette sends smoke gliding through the air covering just enough of his face to raise her eyebrow, mystery was always her guilty pleasure. She checks her reflection in the glass of the jukebox then makes her first attempt at seduction.
Nonchalance has gotten her everywhere in life so she saunters up to the opposite end of the bar, orders a shot of jameson with a pbr back. She realizes this may make her look as if she was a girl from brooklyn, but why start this love affair off with lies, she is a girl from brooklyn. their eyes meet.
Just as she thought he was a charmer, a hard catch, but she's dealt with this type before. The guy who has underdeveloped confidence, just enough to keep you guessing but not enough to come to you. At the moment of eye contact the whistle blew and the game was on.


... to be continued ... too tired to finish tonight.

Friday, May 13, 2011

questions

somethings on my mind. i'm not sure how to write it down so i'm just going to hold it in for now, maybe soon i'll be ready to share.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

reflections

when i think about my future i think about the places i want to go, the places i want to explore.

am i suppose to be happy when everything i ever wanted comes with a price.
well in a way i'm happier than i have ever been, right here in my little studio apartment in the middle of the brooklyn ghetto. but again the quote above speaks volumes, i'm happier than ever right now in this minute but it has come with a price; a huge price some may say. i have used people, i have hurt people, i have made mistakes, i have cried, i have laughed, i have pretended, i have said things that weren't true, i have manipulated, i have done everything, even fight, to get to this point of happiness.
i left everything, i hit the highway in full sprint never to expect i'd look back but here i am looking far back into my past. i'm finally realizing everything has a reason, every choice i've made and everything i'm doing is a direct reflection of my past. now i'm on a journey to open up the shadows of my past and reveal to myself what it is i'm running from.

here's a few pictures from my life here thus far, enjoy: